Three Olives And Some Yarn

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Spring Has Sprung

this weekend.. i did my rounds.. i picked up plants from here .. coconut liners from there...made plans for mulch.. raked and de-leaved flower beds.. and i think i planted about 50 plants and spread some seeds. I was a little shocked to see some of the things i was sure would come back this year not.. and somethings i was sure that would die didnt..

its weird how it all works out that way huh? .. i picked up some things i have never planted before and we will see if they can survive in my garden LOL.. i am hoping more things stick around this year than last. A couple of the roses i bought last year totally surprised me because they were on the discount bin looking rather weak and pale..but came back this year in full force.. the clematis i planted a couple years ago has gone crazy! its blooming completely abundantly !! i need a new trellis for it.. or at least for the rose its taken to climbing on.. i need to take some pictures as well..

i have motorcycle updates as well.. i did a few small things so far and i have one giant job i would love to get done by the weekend but i dont forsee that happening.. its changing out my wheels and my pulley.. i need some help getting my bike up on the lift!! I guess i shouldnt have lowered it down as far as i did then i wouldnt have that problem now would i? LOL Its gonna look hot when i am done.. and this year i am running the pearl tins with the white ghost flames.. heheh..

i have other updates too .. but i dont think i am ready to lay that all out here.. maybe some day i will be brave enough to let every one into the depths of my life.. but for now.. i dont think i am ..

that will have to be for another day..

on another note i am calling to make an appointment to get my next tattoo.. i cant wait! its gonna so rock!!

I have also made a decision regarding my bathroom situation.. I have been trying to find that perfect tub.. well guess what? i was browsing thru some cabins for rent in the smokies.. and i found my solution!! i am going to use a galvanized stock tank.. aka a horse trough.. it will be 2ft deep..2 ft wide.. and 6ft long. .. a nice big soaking tub! i cant wait to take a bath! i havent had a bath in this house EVER.. the tub here sucks ass... and i have been on a hunt to find "just the right one"... i think this one fills all my needs.. it will be deep enough.. long enough and wide enough.. and even two people can fit in .. my vanity is going to be a dresser i have upstairs that i will stain and seal with helmsman urathane so steam wont ruin it.. and i will put a galvanized oval "bucket" of sorts on top for the sink.. i can see it all in my head.. i think its gonna be so cool!! and total cost for these three things... 145 dollars! and i already have the tile.. i have been debating the black slate.. but i think in such a small room i think i will stick with the lighter stuff i have .. and i am going to wall paper and do new trim.. i think i can keep this total cost of this project under 500 .. and that will so rock.. i just need to find a little help getting this old crap out of here and putting the new stuff in !! i am sure i can find some one.. anyway .. had to share!

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Unexplainable

today.. i have an unexplainable desire to scream.. i also have an unexplainable desire to just let it all out and sob.. i dont understand it.. maybe i am tired.. exhausted .. five weeks of six days a week working will do that.. maybe i am tired of people fucking with me.. if you have something to say .. fucking say it.. dont allude .. dont try to make me guess.. just fucking say it..

there are a couple people right now that are game players trying to drag me down.. and i usually dont get down about this but when they try to drag people in that i actually care about.. then there is a problem

maybe i am just hungry.. i get this way when i need to eat.. or maybe i am just at the brink of mental break down and i just dont even know..

perhaps tomorrow i will forget all about it .. but for today .. i am a mess.. fuck.. i have to go to work in about 2 hours so i guess i should get it all together..

for right now.. i think i am just gonna go have a shower and let it all out .. and hope the neighbors dont think some one is trying to kill me.. although i think there are people that would like to mentally crush me.. and right now.. i think they just might be winning..

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Welcome Spring

Today it was 74 degrees and gorgeous around here.. i have seen signs of spring every where.. the hyacinths are blooming by my back door.. there are buds on my lilacs.. i hear motorcycles every where.. the forsythia in my neighbors yard is blooming those wonderful yellow flowers and i can see them when i look out my kitchen wondow while doing dishes..

i moved my hammock nearer my house so i can use my laptop in the evenings while relaxing out there.. i love wireless!!! my poor plum tree in the front yard was destroyed.. well rather pushed over by the heavy winds we had a few weeks ago.. is in bloom.. it makes me sad it cant be saved..but you know it was in an odd place anyway .. and i can always plant another in the back yard or in a place that makes better sense as far as shade and placement go..

i worked out in my flower beds today and got some clean up done.. i need to make a trip to lowe's or home depot and get some mulch to spruce up the beds a little and i also need to get out in front and get the rest of the leaves that were blown against the foundation of the house in the flower beds raked out and bagged.. i need to do a bit of pruning to the apple trees and trim back a few things and move some bulbs.. i swear i am gonna move those bulbs every year and fail to do it .. well this year .. its getting done!! i am tired of weirdly placed things in my yard.. i am going to move them into some of the flower beds and into the little line that goes between my neighbors yard and mine.... i also am going to get a shade garden going under my tree in front .. i cleaned it up last year and spread some seeds but some how they didnt sprout.. that might have to do with the non watering of them LOL..

i have good hopes for things this year .. i am prepared and happy to be here and ready to do some things with out any consent or decisions based on what any one else would think.. freedom is nice..that is why things around here are getting done.. cause i can do something i want with out some one coming in behind me making a face at that decision .. not going there.. really i am not..

jessicas space up stairs is almost done and with that she came in and announced that she was gonna move in with a friend that was closer to school and work (from here to school is a half hour and to work is 20 minutes) and when you are busy or need to come home for something it can eat an hour of your day .. and i totally understand it.. she felt bad because i had spent so much money up there but you know what..?? it works out for me .. really it does.. i can make those two rooms into my office and my work room and actually have a spare space for sleep overs as well .. so its really ok and she is always welcome back here if something happens between the two of them..

on the motorcycle front.. i have plans for a "spring fling" in oklahoma in may... some "midwest thunder" in michigan in june and i have been been invited to florida in september to go relax by the water .. and i am sure i will find other adventures on the way.. its gonna be a nice summer i can tell already..

Monday, February 09, 2009

Halo Moon

the halo moon here tonight is gorgeous.. it doesnt happen often but the full moon seems to bring out the most beauty in the night.. the moon was so bright tonight i cast a shadow when i took the dogs out .. the air feels magickal especially since there was a halo tonight!!

i went to work today .. it was kind of boring..it gave me alot of time to think about things i need to do at home.. things i need to do in my life.. and things i need to just get together finally now that i have only myself to be accountable for .. if that makes sense?

i am finally at a point in my life where i dont feel the stress of other people's influence on how or why i make my decisions.. and on that note.. i feel and own my decsions wholly.. it doesnt mean they are all right.. but they are all mine and for me...at this moment...that means alot..

i am making changes and persuing directions i dont think i would have ever thought possible just this time last year.. actually this time last year .. i didnt really think i was gonna make it through at all .. i was at one of my lowest points health wise that i have been in for quite some time..

i look back and see the steps i have taken in the past year and i am really amazed at myself.. things i thought would break me didnt.. things i thought wouldnt kind of did.. i know i am talking in riddles but the truth of it all is just for me.. i am tried of making excuses and saying i am sorry to people who in the long run dont really care at all anyway

i think i am ready for even bigger things but for now i think i will settle on getting my house to the point it should have been years ago and i just couldnt seem to get it there.. that ismy goal for summer.. update my room.. get jessicas space completely finished.. get my craft space arranged .. and get my foyer.. and parlour finished up .. then i can start on the kitchen next year!!

Saturday, February 07, 2009

Weather

mother nature has been a whore lately ! serious.. at the beginning of the week we were at 6 degrees at night .. and today ? 66.. what the hell ? its january ..

whatever..

its been busy around here.. more cleaning purging storing and work .. we are almost done with the two rooms upstairs.. i will take pics when they are done.. i am ready to start wtih the downstairs as well .. my bedroom gets a freshening soon as well .. i am repainting and rearranging.. the colours is going to be a nice peachy brown or would that be browny peach? i dont know but i do like it!

jessica being here has been good for me.. it makes me want better for the house and it makes me motivated to get things done.. and she is good company.. its been nice to have some one to talk to and i think she is enjoying having some one to talk to as well and bounce ideas off... i am so proud of her.. she only has one more semester at school.. then she graduates.. she went for an interview for the school paper and is looking for an internship for the summer.. all of these things will help her get a job once she gets out of school....

this past couple months has been good to me actually .. i have gotten to reconnect with some old friends.. find a couple new ones and i feel i am branching out in ways i never thought possible.. i have big plans for the summer as well.. i have a few big ride trips planned and alot of small ones as well .. i hope to double my miles on my bike by the end of the summer ! so excited to be feeling well and up to all of this ..

off to get more done for the day .. the dogs need washed and i need to scrub the bathroom!

Thursday, January 08, 2009

Rennovation

sometimes our lives need rennovation.. sometimes its our houses.. and at this point.. for me.. its both...

my niece is due to move in on the 20th and i sit here exhasuted.. tired triceps.. sore calves.. aching shoulders.. feeling great.. i feel accomplished.. i feel powerful.. i feel proud.. i have worked hard the past couple weeks.. purging things from my house.. placing things in storage to get ready to do a few projects downstairs.. i have been working on Jecasso's room upstairs as well.. the bedroom.. the relaxing room can be finished when she gets here..

in her bedroom we have put up insulation.. ceiling tiles.. and i am about to go keep cracking on getting the paneling up the stairs and on the walls as far as i can go.. i still need a couple insulation boards.. but i can get at least half the panels up tonight if i try real hard.. i think i need some coffee..LOL.. or spinach!! lol

so once all that is all up then the carpet can go down and the trim up and viola! done ! LOL.. jecasso spent yesterday evening painting trim a deep chocolate brown.. well the colour is called tree bark.. and the walls will be tiger eye.. a gorgeous golden brown.. she will also have red wall paper on a couple walls that looks like notes are written on it.. with a little international travel border in the middle.. yes i will take pics.. its gonna be gorgeous!!

she will have a platform bed.. and a small sitting area with a TV in it for her personal use.. the other room which can be completed later.. will look like the inside of a harem tent.. the walls will be draped with creme coloured fabric with sheer layers of colours over it .. with some nice cushy carpet and huge pillows every where.. this will be her computer space plus the space that has the cable and the movie channels and will offer a clear space for our yoga, belly dancing, and pilates work outs !

its actually going to be nice to have some one in this big house with me.. i have been rattling around here alone for a very long time and its gonna be a treat to have some one to hang out with and share with.. i know it sounds weird but i think its gonna be fun! of course i know Jessica loves her privacy and i would never butt in on that unless she asked etc.. but i think having some one here will motivate me into being a better house keeper .. it will help me eat better because i will have both of us to cook for .. and it will just be fun..

anyway .. off to work again!! have a great evening and watch for pictures in the coming days .. i should have some in oh say about a week !! actually i am hoping even before that !!

Sunday, January 04, 2009

Sitting Here

Sitting here ..

listening to the rain tapping on my window
thoughts of us .. 20 years ago .. wander thru my head

many different scenarios run around as well

i remember you fondly

you said i made you nervous.. maybe i will understand that one day

if you decide to translate the statement..

my heart breaks for you .. the loss of your mother .. i cant imagine

i watched you .. as she was lowered into the ground.. i wanted to wrap you in comfort

because it didnt seem your wife was too concerned..

maybe we can be friends this spring